Hey.

Hey guys.

I just needed somewhere to rant and just let all my feelings out. Hopefully I would feel better. And so, we kinda fought huh. And that sucks so bad. Especially when we fight over two things. For the first one, I have absolutely no idea that you would get so angry over this. Well, it's my fault (?) Idk man. I alr told you that I would be leaving school, I honestly didn't know that you were still having oral. I saw your friends and so I thought you finished alr. Also, I was in a rush that's why I left. You said I should have waited for you to end and tell you before I left, well, maybe I should have. I'm sorry. I just didn't want to waste time. And also, I would feel bad if I asked Noreen to wait with me for you. But at least I bothered to borrow a friend's phone and inform you instead of just leaving without saying a single thing. Even after I finished buying whatever I needed to buy, I still called you to see if you were still in school so I could find you. At least I bothered, right ?

Well, then it's okay, put all the blame on me. It's my fault, all my fault. Then while we were quarreling, you went to talk to another girl ? Of course I wasn't happy. And you seemed so happy when you were talking to her, that's the worst thing. Why out of all times did you go and talk to her ? Ya I am damn bloody sensitive and insecure and shit. I wouldn't really be that upset if you talk to girls normally but not when we're on such bad terms and when we're quarreling ? Ugh idk man. Do you get it ?

How many times must we quarrel ? How many ? Honestly, I feel so tired and so upset. Why must all these shit happen ? I've been trying my best to keep all this going and to just be the best for you. I've been trying. Every single time you're sad, I try my best to cheer you up. You may wonder why I get angry at you when you don't sleep. It's because when you don't, the next day you'll be very tired and very very moody. And this will affect us. Don't you get it ? I've been trying my best to encourage you in your studies. I wrote you notes and even bought you something along with that note. I hope you see that I'm really trying. Sometimes I wonder why you don't do the same back to me... Yeah maybe I shouldn't expect so much. Maybe I should just give without expecting to recieve the same treatment. It's okay man. I'm still gonna keep trying and giving my best. Even though at times I really really really feel like giving up because I'm so hurt and I'm so tired, I still press on and tell myself not to give up. I think about those wonderful memories we had before and I believe that one day they'll all come back to us. I'm still not giving up.

That's it for this blog post. Bye.

Hello (:

Hello everyone !

Sorry for not blogging for so long because I've been either busy or just lazy, hehehe.

Mid Years are over and hais, I'm so disappointed with my results. Especially for my physics and humanities paper because I really studied hard for those papers and the results I got were pure shit. I didn't do as well for chinese as well, I've gotta start working harder, I want to do well for Os.

Anyways, today was our Career Guidance Seminar day. I was a little tired so I almost slept during the different capsules but luckily, I didn't. First capsule I went to was Business & Accountancy and I thought it was pretty cool but I don't think I'll be choosing that as one of my choices for Poly. Oh right, I really want to go to a Poly, preferably Temasek Poly because it's near to my house and they have good courses provided there, or at least, courses that I like and would want to go for. So my second capsule was Hospitality & Tourism. I've always thought of wanting to work in resorts or just places where there are many attractions because it's fun and I get to work with people. During this capsule, I found out that there is also one course called Leisure & Resort Management and when the lecturer was talking about this course, I knew in my mind that I would put this course as one of my 12 choices because it seemed quite fun and I would get to work as an intern at resorts and all that so I really like this course. Then my third capsule was Sports, Health & Leisure. I kinda regretted going for this one, I didn't know why I picked this one. Should have gone for Aviation Management because I wouldn't mind working as a cabin crew and also in the airport, again, getting to work with people. Luckily Noreen went for that one and she told me some stuff about Aviation Management and it's pretty cool so yay, that might be one of my choices as well !

Moving on to talking about another thing. This few days have been like a rollercoaster, full of ups and downs. So many things going on and I really felt like giving up at certain points but I keep pushing on because I know that at the end of all these, I would find it all worth it. Things between us haven't been going well recently and I'm really sad and hurt because I never want this to happen. Honestly, I keep feeling like I'm annoying you in some way or another. I'm very insecure and I keep getting the feeling that I'm always not good enough. I'm scared that one day you'll find someone better or you'll go back to liking your previous crush or whatever. I'm so damn scared of losing you because you mean that much to me, I hope you understand. Hais, but yeah. I really hope that this episode of 'arguments' and getting angry at each other would go past fast because I want us to be like last time, happy when we're together. I'm not giving up on you, I will still continue trying my best to make everything go well and I'll continue trying to give in and of course, I would still continue loving you.

So this is it for this blog post. Thanks for reading you guys. Have a great night ! Bye (:

A Special Someone (:

Hello everyone ! ^^

Sorry for not blogging for like a month because I've been busy and also didn't get to use the computer so yup. Today's blog post is about someone special, someone I hold close to my heart. And that someone knows I'm blogging about him so yup, here it is ! Specially for you :p

So we've started talking again since last year's Christmas and have been talking ever since ! Hmmm I shall just start by describing him ! He's tall ( or is it i short hahaha ), he's sweet ( don't deny it hor ), he's nice, he's kind and caring, he's cute ( don't deny this as well ), he's hardworking, he's good in basketball ( rebound king sia xD ), he's funny and he's understanding. Hahaha knew him since sec 1 (?) when I got into Dunman cos he's in basketball and so am I. So he was like my basketball senior, well he still is ! And some bad stuff happened between us when I was sec 2 but I'm glad all is good now ! Hahahaha I'm happy that we're closer now ^^ Oh and people keep calling him fat and honestly, it's so annoying. Does being skinny or whatever get you a job in the future ? Does it determine who you are on the inside ? No right ? So please, stop. His personality is all that matters ! (:

Hahahaha he's always there for me and he never fail to make me smile. I look forward to seeing him when I'm in school and I love talking to him. So just about a month ago, we confessed to each other. But no, we're not together YET. Because it's both of our O level year and yeah, I have certain commitments as well so we're not together for now (: I really can't wait for O levels to be over because I can't wait to be officially together with him ! I really like how I can just share my feelings with him and I love how I can just talk things out with him. For example, our r/s stuff, setting certain boundaries and all. I love all of that because I didn't dare to share so much with other guys in the past ! I used to keep them all to myself cos I'm afraid. But now, when it comes to him, sharing stuff  is just so natural ! I'm starting to become more comfortable when I'm around him and I'm really happy that I can be myself when I'm with him. Whenever I'm feeling down, he's always there to cheer me up ! He's always there for me when I need him and that's what I love the most (:

He's really an awesome guy and I'm really blessed to have him in my life ^^ Even though sometimes he can be a bit clueless about stuff, I still love him for who he is (: I'm looking forward to the day we officially get into a r/s ! This few months until O levels is over, will be tough for the both of us but I know with him by my side, I'll be able to get through this and he will be able to get through all of this as well because I'll always be there for him (:

And so, this amazing guy is none other than, Kong Yiroon (: I'm really thankful for him and I'm really really blessed to have him be part of my life ^^ Thank you so much for the things you've done for me ! Let's work hard together for basketball and O levels ! We'll go through this together :p Hehehe so yup, that's it for this blog post, will blog again soon when I have time ! Have a great weekend ! Bye ^^

Happy Friday !

Hey ! ^^

Sorry for not blogging the past 2 weeks (?) Have been busy and sometimes I just get too tired when I reach home or rather, lazy, hehehe :p Anyways this period is like the Chinese New Year period and yay I love Chinese New Year because of all the good food ( PINEAPPLE TARTS ) and it's the only time where I can really dress up and even put on makeup ^^ Hehehe hope all of you have enjoyed your Chinese New Year so far ! (:

This week of school have been really difficult. Trying my best to concentrate in class and to cope with my studies. It's quite hard to get back on track because I really had too much fun during the cny holiday so.....HAHA. Have been really tired because I've been sleeping super duper late during the cny holiday and also because some really unpleasant things happened and they really affected me so I couldn't sleep at night. BUT I'm super super happy that everything's fine now :D

So today was just fun, even during training :3 Hahaha supposed to have three free periods because Mdm Han was absent but Mr Kang knew about the three free periods and decided to come into class to have a 1 hour lesson with us. A total spoiler because I thought I could have used that three periods to study some more for the POA test but hais, no. Lucky the lesson was quite okay so yup ! And then after recess was the most dreaded POA test. I really dislike POA partly because I don't really understand and cos it's B O R I N G. I shouldn't have took POA :/ So before taking the test, we had a bit of revision and also learned a new topic which was also included in the test. Haha the test was just pure crap. I was like 'WHAT IS THIS ? I CANNOT REMEMBER ANYTHING !' Then I started laughing at the paper and at myself. Hahaha my mind really blanked out. I couldn't even remember what I studied and I was really shocked. Luckily Mr Lim helped abit :3

 Then went for a short lunch with Yiroon before training ! (: Hahaha training was quite okay today ! Didn't really do a lot but I'm really disappointed with myself cos I didn't do very well when we were playing half court match. Hais I need to buck up. Then went to gym and had to do shooting after that. I was really hyper and crazy during shooting. I have no idea why but I was just so erm high ! Hahaha I feel so annoying but whatever, that was just me being myself :p Hehehe then watched the netball match after training, a really big good job to the netball girls for winning and playing well ! Continued watching the other netball matches and was just basically doing nothing :3

Hahaha talked to Khaliesah and sang tgt while the music was playing. Then went to just hang around and talk with a really good guy friend of mine, Yiroon ! (: Hahaha I have something to clarify ah.... No guys no, We are not together and I'm really not lying, We are just close friends, nothing else (: Hahaha talked for quite awhile before his dad came to pick him and I waited for Putri to go home together.

Today's been great and I can't wait for tmr cos we'll be going to some place nice for dinner to celebrate my Ah Gong's birthday ! Yay ! Hahaha this should be it for now. I hope I'll be able to blog the next few days though. Hehehe will try my best to blog as often as I can. Hahaha ok bye ! (:

Fridayyy

Hello hello hello !

Didn't blog yesterday because I was tired and I had to sleep early because there's a match today ! Hehehe left class at 10.30 today for the match. Only attended English and Chinese lesson today. We had to do a graded essay during English and I wrote so damn much, I hope that's a good thing :3 Hehehe then during Chinese, there was a compo test and it was quite okay. Left for match and ugh, didn't play well again. I was so nervous. Even after telling myself repeatedly that I can do this, don't be nervous. I still was. Sigh, why can't I be like the rest ? They're confident and they don't fumble the ball like I do every single time. It's super annoying. I really want to be a good player, doing all the things that I should. But I fail everytime. And that sucks so bad. Why can't I not be nervous ? It's so difficult. Ugh, this shit is so annoying. Damn freaking annoying. I just can't understand why. Is it because I'm not good enough ? Sigh. I want to play well. I want to, for once, get praised by Coach because I played well, because I fought hard. I don't want to disappoint the rest all the time. Hais. But I'm really thankful for my teammates. They encourage me every single time. And that is also why I get so affected when I don't play well. I feel like I've disappointed my teammates when I don't play well. Yeah some people might say then just don't fumble and play well la. What's so difficult ? Lol please, it'd difficult actually. Inside me I know that I can do it and I will be able to do it but when I put it into action, it all just sucks and turns out bad. Sigh. Let's just hope I play better the next match.

Then went back to school to shoot and play for a bit. Played 1 on 1 with Putri and I couldn't even score a single ball. I felt so lousy and so.....UGH. Then we started shooting and my shots were so damn off. Then I just went to sit down and I started thinking about the match and what I've done wrong. I can't stop blaming myself for being such a lousy player. Why oh why. Oh and thanks to Sofia, Jamie, Noreen and Andrea for cheering me up ! Then went on to shoot a bit more before resting for awhile and then started to play 1 on 1 with the super tall John Nazz. Hahaha at first I was scoring so much but he still won in the end. It was fun playing with him, really laughed a lot. I kept fouling him xD Those unnecessary fouls. Meh. Went to sit down for a bit after playing with John. Then started playing running man with Sofia, Emi and Aqidah. We teared foolscap paper, wrapped it around our hands and stapled the paper tgt. Sofia and Emi were the catchers first and they were aiming Aqidah most of the time. First time they 'caught' her was at the canteen area, but they didn't manage to tear off her 'tag' so she was still 'alive'. Then she ran and got caught again. But still, they didn't manage to tear off her tag. So in the end, we swap roles. Aqidah and I became the catchers. Aqidah tore off Emi's tag and she also helped me to tear off Sofia's. We were all on the floor and omg so dirty, my white pants became, yucks. Hahaha and damn, my basketball shoes and white jersey pants kena paint because apparently, my shoes kena cos we were playing and I didn't know that there was wet paint so tadahhhh. Then my pants kena cos I forgot that there was wet paint and actually sat 'on' it. How dumb. I thought I was never gonna remove the paint but then, this netball junior told me that it can be removed by using the thinner (?) from the DnT room so YAY, Crystal will be helping me ! (:

Went for dinner at Tamp 1 Subway with Angela and Crystal. Talked and laughed a lot. Had some horny talk in between and omg, it was disgusting. I think people thought we were crazy cos we laughed too much and probably, too loud. Then we walked around that area and went to popular first before going to paper stone ! There were scrapbooks there and we were allowed to scribble on it so Angela and I was busy scribbling and writing quotes and just, making the book look nicer xD Hahaha crystal was like staring at us and going like haiya you guys ah. Hahaha free paper to scribble so WHY NOT. Hahaha so we suddenly remembered that we needed to get something for someone so we went to Zinc to look around and omg the pink baggu bag was so pretty ! But it's like $29.90, expensive ): want buy also no money. Hais, it's so nice. Then continued walking around and we went to see what movies there were. And oh, I heard there's this movie coming out called The Fault In Our Stars and it sounds interesting, I WANT TO WATCH. HAHA. LOL. Hahaha so we walked past Fruit Paradise and omg the cakes look so yummy but it's so expensive. The cheapest slice is like $6.80 ?! What the shit. But still, it looks sooooooooo good. Hahaha so we went to the converse shop and the shoes were really nice. I really want a high cut one so I guess I should start saving up for it :/ Hais so many things that I want but my damn budget....... Let's just pray that money just appear for no apparent reason. ( lol that will never happen )

Today's been fun. And tmr is church dayyyyyyy. Can't wait ! Hehehe ok bye ! Goodnight ! (:

It's Wednesday !

Hello everyone !

I'm so tired and so moody but still, I'm gonna blog. Hehehe today's been great. Except for the fact that training ended late -.- Ended at 7. Hais. Anyway, lessons today were pretty much okay. Mrs Lim is on MC today so we had to go to Mr Lew's class for A Maths lesson. I wanted to just sit at the benches outside class cos I didn't wanna go in and listen to him teach. I don't like Mr Lew at all as a A Maths teacher. And when I don't like a teacher, I really won't want to listen in his class. Idk why I just get so irritated. Ugh. And so far, he's the only teacher that I dislike this much. So we had free period today because Miss Neeta had to rush off for something important. So I just went to the benches outside to sit and talk with some of the girls in my class. We laughed a lot and I really feel blessed that I have such wonderful classmates. Hahaha so after school, there was A Maths remedial but I didn't have to go because I'm not in Mr Lew's class and even if I was asked to go, I wouldn't want to. When I walked back into class to take my bag, he was like saying sports people usually have a lot of determination and are hardworking blah blah blah and when he saw me he said but I don't know about SOME people uh. And he gave me that look. I was like thinking what the shit you want ?? Lol then I said hahaha whatever. And he say I also never say you. Lol please la everyone knows you're talking about me -.- don't need hide la. Just because I don't listen to you in class doesn't mean I don't have that determination and that 'hardworking-ness' you're talking about. I'm doing fine with Mrs Lim as my A Maths teacher. I just don't like you as a teacher so I don't even bother about you. HAHA. Omg I feel so mean but seriously, that's how I feel so oh well.

Then went to eat lunch with Putri, Jamie and Noreen. We talked and laughed so much. It was fun to be eating with them (: And we, the sec 4 basketball girls, were literally going crazy and retarded before training. Hahaha it all started with Khaliesah asking Putri to pose for the camera and we all just joined in and take pictures. Then we realised that Tanya wasn't there, she was in the canteen eating so we went to the canteen and sort of surprised her somehow. We ran towards her and crowded behind her and Khaliesah just started taking pictures for us. Tanya was like what's going on ? HAHAHA so we just walked away and decided to do the same thing to random people we see in school. Khaliesah was our photographer and Putri was the one going to the person and say hey let's take a picture, look at the camera ! Hahaha we literally had fun running around and just shocking people by asking them to pose for the camera. We did the same thing to Miss Goh and Miss Ong, it was really fun. I heard from Putri that people say that us, the basketballers are unfriendly. No we are not. We are a fun bunch of people to be around with ok ! Hahaha then started gym and shooting and just, training. Hahaha ended training pretty late. Quite annoyed though cos some of us don't live very near school and it takes time for us to go back home. And we also have homework to complete. Why must end so late ? Hais. Apart from training ending late, today's been a fun day (:

That's it for this blog post. Thank you for reading ! Hehehe bye ^^

Hey

So I woke up late today. Hahaha woke up at like 8.56 am. And I was like 'Omg daddy, I'm late for school. HAHAHA.' First time I slept until I couldn't wake up. And first time I'm late. Damn, I blew it. Hahahah my record of not being late just gone like that. Hais. It's okay nvm (: Hahahaha so knowing that I'm already late, I took my own sweet time getting ready and also waited for my dad to fetch me cos I lazy to take bus :3 Hahaha reached school around 9.55 am and had to wait at the seats at the guard post there because apparently Mr Sim had to come to 'fetch' me. Lol so when he came, I walked to him and greeted him. Then we walked toward my class and he just asked me why I was late and I said woke up late. Then there was awkward silence for a moment before he asked what time I usually sleep and I said 12 plus but I slept earlier last night. Then he said if I was too tired or I can't remember what. And duh, of course I told him I was tired. Hahaha then he told me that he had swimming training last night at 8pm and he didn't feel like waking up this morning and blah blah blah. Then I said I was tired cos I had training yesterday then he say I'll get used to it.{ actually, not only cos of training that's why I'm tired, it's also cos yesterday was pretty much an emotional day for me and I really needed a good rest } Lol he's very nice. Didn't scold me. Hahaha first time late mah, I guess. Hehehe then he just walked me until the staircase there before he left. Can't believe that I actually woke up late. Actually thought of just not coming to school at all but I can't afford to miss lessons, especially since I'm sec 4 already. Hahaha luckily I only missed A Math lesson.

And so today was pretty much okay. Had lessons until 2pm then went for lunch with Jamie and John at some shop outside school. The food was not bad. Hahaha then bought bubbletea before heading back to school for SS remedial. Then stayed back in school to shoot for awhile and also watched the netball matches that were going on in school. Left school at about 5 plus with the rest and took bus to fetch my sister. Shahbaz took the same bus as me too so we were talking about stuff and he told me about his 'adventures of coming to school late'. When I heard what he did, I was like W O A H. So cool sia. I doubt I will ever have the balls to do that. Hahaha we alighted at the same stop and continued talking until I reached the place where I was supposed to fetch my sister then he left. Actually we live quite close to each other so yay maybe next time can go to school tgt. Then had dinner with the fam before heading home. 

On a side note, my phone spoil ): Apparently everything I see now on my screen is like white (?) It seems like I'm seeing everything in negative. Just because I dropped it once in the morning yesterday. Sigh. Nvm at least still can see a little bit. Just have to tilt my phone here and there. Sad sad sad. I need a new phone.... And recently I've been listening to the popular song, Say Something. It's really nice and I'll just get emotional when I sing it or listen to it at home. It's such a nice and slow song. And the words are meaningful as well. I like the part 'And I will stumble and fall. I'm still learning to love. Just starting to crawl.' because I can relate to it and it makes sense. Hehehe (:

Oh oh oh, I have something I wanna say. Yesterday when you said that one sentence, I totally just 'melted'. LIke really, my anger turned into sadness. I have no freaking idea why. Hais, we didn't talk again today. I really want to talk to you but then again, I'm kinda scared. Damn. I need to stop. Kbye. 

Ugh.

Heyyyyyy. Today's post is a really negative one. Cos I'm really angry and I just need to rant. 

So today was pretty okay. Just that there's something that kept bothering me. It's super annoying and I don't even know if I should even get fed up over this. Lol. I guess I should huh cos it's not the first time. First few times I won't really bother but what the, it' already how many times that you've done this. Seriously man. Every single time you'll say sorry sorry ): but what for ? You still did the same thing again.Even as a friend, you shouldn't be doing this. If it was my other friends treating me like that, I would be angry as well. I'm actually okay if you don't reply me or even reply late. I won't really be bothered about it cos you might just be busy. And yes at times you're really busy. I don't mind. But if you're busy then how can you be online on whatsapp ? Okay maybe you just randomly check cos a text comes in. Fine, I'm okay with that. Sometimes I'm like that too. But then you still can have the time to blog ? HAHA yeah right, you're damn freaking busy that you even have the freaking time to sit down infront of the computer and blog. Okay whatever, maybe when you blog you're deep in your thoughts and you won't be able to talk to anyone. Fine, okay. But you still even have the time to go and buy new shoes. Lol yeah you're D E F I N I T E L Y busy. And you can even talk to another friend. Mmhmm yup she's close to you. I know (: and no I'm not jealous because I know that both of you are really close. And I don't have any reason to be jealous ! But then when you texted me at night and said that you'll be sleeping and you said hope I won't be mad. LOL of course I'm mad right. But it's okay, nvm, go, just go and have some rest since it's school the next day. You need your sleep. But the damn freaking annoying part is that you were still online after saying goodnight. And even online until pretty late. Haha and you were talking to another friend. Lol you said you were gonna sleep. Yes you needed to cheer that friend up but if you can't talk to me AT ALL, tell me. My point is if you're busy, I'm fine with that because not everyone is free all the time right ? We all have our busy moments. But the fact that you said you were busy and you can still blog, buy new shoes, online on whatsapp and talk to another friend ? That's just plain bullshit. And I know Sundays are your tuition days. You'll be busy. I don't mind. O levels are coming, you need to study. But then you can still do other things and not even talk to me ? Now I know where I stand in your life. If you don't wanna talk, just say ! Don't have to say you're busy when practically you aren't really that busy. I'm fine with you not talking to me cos you said you're busy but not when you lie to me. I say lie cos busy means you won't even have time to be on your phone or even talk to anyone else. But the fact that you did, shows that you aren't that busy after all. And you told me you were. Get my point ? Ugh. Such a liar. I hate liars. And you still can ask if I'm angry with you. Of course, I freaking am. I ignored you the whole of today. I didn't even bother looking at you or smiling at you. Duh, I'm pissed. I really don't wish to be ranting right now but damn, this shit is bothering me. And if you're reading this and you think I'm being unreasonable and practically being a bitch, then come and tell me straight. Tell me why. Tell me how you feel. If you think I've misunderstood you, tell me. Just come and tell me. Ugh. I don't wanna tell you how I feel because I don't want to rage at you. So everything is just written here. Hope you get my point and how I feel. 

That's it for this post. Too pissed to say anything else. Bye.

Sunday Funday

Today's Sunday ! Technically my rest day and I love but sort of dread Sundays. Love because I can sleep in later than usual and also because Sundays are the days where my family would go out together for dinner. { most of the time } Dread because the next day is Monday, school. Sigh. And I have to be in school early tmr because I forgot to bring my physics book back home and there's homework so have to go early tmr to complete it. Meh.

Supposed to be in church in the morning for Saphhire's birthday celebration but unfortunately, I woke up late ): Sigh. Then wanted to go for lunch with Justina but decided to go have lunch with my mum instead since she's always busy during the weekdays due to work. Went to tampines inter mac for lunch with my mum, younger brother and sister ! Laughed a lot during lunch because we were being retarded. Hahaha after lunch, we went to walk around that area. Spent a lot of time at Uniqlo before going to buy my knee guard. Went to Hoops Factory at first but they didn't have the one I wanted so we went to another shop to find but unfortunately, there wasn't the one that I wanted as well. The size was either too big or too small. So ended up not buying any. I was so annoyed because I really need a knee guard and damn, they didn't have it at all. And I have training tmr. { borrowing my junior's knee guard for tmr's training first } Hais. Guess I'm gonna head to queenstown to buy one on either tuesday or thursday. And I have no idea how to go there. Damn. Then went to Safra to meet Angela and Jamie. They wanted to swim so while they were swimming, I was studying. Actually, studying by the pool is a pretty good idea ! It was really windy and the environment is good as well ! And we took quite a lot of pictures, camwhored xD Hahaha then went for dinner with the fam at Simpang Bedok. Had steak for dinner and it was so good. And the price was reasonable as well (: Before going home, we went back to tampines 1 to buy printer ink cos my brother needs it by today. Lol. And then, we came home.

And so this is one quote that I really love because it is very true. I myself have experienced what it means when the quote says 'good day'. It is indeed true that when I remind myself to be thankful, I am happy. For instance, there was this one day I wasn't really very happy because of something but I reminded myself that I have to be grateful for the other things that happened so that unhappiness literally went away and I found myself smiling again. When you're grateful, you're happy ! And when you're happy, it's a good day. Sort of like a domino effect thing. And it's been long since I've had a good day. I mean the days that went past were pretty okay. There was happiness, sadness and of course, anger. But it wasn't a 'good day'. I shouldn't be having any negative feelings. Because if I keep my gratitude higher than my expectations, I would never feel that way. I would be thankful for every single thing and when I'm thankful, I will of course be happy ! So I really hope that in the days to come, I will be reminded of this quote of just keeping my gratitude higher than my expectations. I want everyday to be a good day (:

That's it for today's post ! Hopefully I'll have time to blog tmr. Goodnight and have a blessed third week of school ^^

It's SATURDAY !

As you can tell from the title. I really love Saturdays because it's church day ! Every Saturday I look forward to going for service and having cell with the super awesome ML30. And today I'm really happy cos I got my pay ! Yeah, I worked. Worked at Jpot during the holidays (: will blog about my work experience another day. But sad, cos half of my pay will be gone. Need to buy another knee guard which is more suitable for my knee. Hais. Anyway, moving on to talk about today ! ^^

Supposed to meet the lovely Andrea at 3 but then it became 3.30 and then even later. Hahaha so I went to collect my pay first then she met me at interchange and we ate ice cream and shared quite abit ! My dad was free so he picked us up at tamp and sent us to church ! We were late but better late than not be there right ? Hehehe :p Worship was great. The Lord's presence was really there, I could feel it. Though half the time I was sitting cos my knee was hurting. Couldn't really concentrate during sermon cos I was distracted by some other things. { guilty } Hahaha I need to focus more and stop thinking about other stuff. Had subway for dinner, yum yum yum ! Had a craving for subway so yup ate that, though I knew that I would still be hungry after having subway cos it's not filling at all :3 Hehehe then moved on to cell time. This week's cell was different because we had cell at Grace Canopy and not at the usual Faith Chapel. And today's cell was really fun cos we kept pressurizing Ben to tell us who our new cell leader is gonna be. And he was trying his best to not reveal anything. Hahaha almost everything that was said will be led to the question 'So who is our new cell leader ?' And Ben will just say 'You guys will know soon.' Kept annoying him with that question because we were genuinely curious ! We really wanted to know who our new cell leader will be. There was so much laughter during cell today ! Hahaha so during cell we shared abit before splitting into our DGs { discipleship group - consists of Crystal, Germaine & Tamly } to share on the questions that Ben gave us. Unfortunately Crystal was sick so she wasn't in church today. Anyways, I thought it was just gonna be like surface sharing but I was wrong. I was the first to start sharing and oh my gosh, I shared so much. And I'm really thankful that Germaine and Tamly were all ears and listening so attentively. It really showed me that they truly care about and for me. We shared things that were really deep down in our hearts. It was a really deep sharing and I'm thankful that I was able to be part of that sharing and also be part of their lives. And the fact that we were sharing our thoughts 'under the stars', made the atmosphere a better one and we really had a great time of just exchanging thoughts. I can't wait for the next DG meeting because I know that it's gonna be another time of deep sharing like today's one. I love heart to heart talks so yeah. And I really can't wait to go through life with these 3 girls. Because I know that whenever I have problems, I can just turn to them and they'll just be there for me. I'm also glad that they are so willing to share stuff with me and trusting me. It takes courage to actually share what's deep down in our hearts and I'm thankful for their courage and willingness to share. Can't wait for the next DG meeting (:

Ended cell with a time of worship and I was really blessed by that. I'm really happy to be part of ML30 and just spending my time in church on Saturdays. Today's been great and I've been blessed. So it's late already and I have to wake up early tmr so yup, goodnight (:

TGIF

Really really, thank God it's Friday. This week is the second week of school. Honestly, I'm dying. Meh. It's been a hectic week. It's always like that isn't it ? First few weeks are always the hardest. But there's one thing that I'm grateful for this entire week and that is my AIR-CON classroom. Yes, I'm really thankful for that. Having an air-conditioned room to have lessons and study in is really a privilege ! And it really helps me to focus more cos I won't feel so warm and will be more comfortable during lessons.

Shall talk on what happened today because I have no idea what else I should blog about. Hehehe. First lesson was Chemistry and it's just like usual. Teacher teaching and we trying our best to grasp whatever that's taught. I thought I wouldn't understand what she's saying cos I missed her lesson yesterday due to match, but surprisingly, I understood everything that she taught. It was pretty easy. Then we headed to the library for English lesson. We had to complete an assignment using the cubing method. It seemed easy but no, it wasn't. We had to brainstorm a lot actually. Xian Wen and I worked together to finish up this entire assignment. We searched for information on the internet and shared ideas with each other. And the ideas we shared were rather relevant. It was really fun to be working with him. Oh and have you guys watched the video on this girl { her name is steph i think } who said why she's not proud to be a Singaporean ? If you have not, then go watch ! Jun Hui and I were talking about it when we were in the library ! I shared my thoughts with her since she haven't watched the video. Actually, what that girl said in the video is pretty true ! I agree with what she says because it makes sense ! People hate her but I don't think they should because she is just stating her opinion and she actually do make sense. This is just what I personally think. I mean not many of us are as brave as her to voice out our opinions and make sure that everyone understands. I really admire her (: hahaha so yeah after English lesson was Chinese lesson. Again, just the same old usual Chinese lesson. Nothing much. Hahaha then it was recess followed by POA. Again. POA was boring. And I didn't really understand. Or maybe cos I wasn't paying attention. Oops. Hehehe.


School ended and I quickly went to change to home clothes. Yeah, you may be wondering why huh. Hahaha it's because John and I had to film a video. It'll be for........not gonna tell you. You may or may not find out. Depends ! Hehehe had fun filming the video though it was a little rush cos I had to go off. After the filming was finished, I went to meet Khaliesah at the basketball court. We were supposed to take the bus to go to AHS to watch the guy's match but Miss Leong was going as well and she has a car ! So we went with her in her car. Hahaha watched the match and yay our guys won, even with only 9 players ! Good job you guys ^^ Then went to eat with Yiroon at somewhere near AHS (: Actually supposed to go back home after eating with him but I went back to AHS instead to watch ESS vs AHS boys because I found out that Khaliesah was still there. Hahaha and went to fetch my sister after the match ! My sister and I took a whole lot of photos. Really retarded ones. And we took it at the void deck so the people who walked pass us were looking at us weirdly. They're probably thinking what are these girls doing ? HAHAHA. On a side note, I'm really thankful for my sister. Her name is Sharlyn by the way. Hahaha I still remember when I was the only daughter in the family and I always say that I want a sister because my two brothers gang up to 'bully' me most of the time. And when I was primary 2, pop, she landed on earth ! Hehehe I was really happy. And I'm still very happy. Because there's now a sister that I can play with and maybe share my thoughts with in the future cos now she's still young. She can be super naughty and irritating at times and sometimes I really can't take it, but nonetheless, I still love her and I'm more than grateful for her (: So that is all for this blog post ! Thanks for reading ! Bye ^^

 

Lessons > Match > Stuff

So I'll be blogging about today and also about something else. First lesson was A Maths and we headed to the AVT. The others had to do a test but some of us didn't have to, and I was part of the 'some of us'. Hahaha while the rest were doing the test, we were doing practices on Binomial Theorem. And once again, not productive la. Only 3 questions. Hais, I need to do my work faster. Then we had PE after that. Didn't bring my PE today just because I was lazy and also cause I thought I wouldn't be playing as I want to conserve energy for match. But haha, I still joined in. Today we played soccer { actually, we'll be learning or rather playing soccer for this year } and surprisingly, it was quite fun ! I remember bragging about how I wouldn't want to be playing soccer and how I really dislike it but now, I actually like it ! Well, I guess it's because the girls I played with were pretty fun to play with ! We had so much fun just kicking the ball around and trying to score. I was taking pictures most of the time but I did join in for abit. We camwhored a lot with Lu Yao's phone and did many retarded faces and actions. We even took a group picture of us, the girls, posing like how those soccer teams out there would pose. It was a great PE session and I really enjoyed it. After PE was Chinese lesson and it was just like the usual Chinese lesson with Du Lao Shi teaching with his rather loud voice and funny actions. Have I ever mention that Chinese lesson is one of my favourite lessons ? I mean cos it's entertaining to watch Du Lao Shi and I like the way he teach !

Hehehe then left class at 10.50 to get ready to leave school for basketball match. Tried on my new knee guard and honestly, it felt weird. Cos it wasn't exactly like a knee guard. And it doesn't really protect my knee but I don't want to complain too much cos it's a really expensive one and it wasn't me who bought it. So I didn't really feel very secure with that knee guard and Mr Wong said that I could tape my knee and he offered to teach me how to go about taping my knee. So yup, now I know. And I really did feel better after taping my knee. It felt more secure, somehow. Then Mr Wong called all of us to gather and he told us that he'll just be sitting down watching us, Adlina and Putri will be our coach for today. And indeed, Adlina and Putri were coaching us for the first and second quarters. On to the game, I was nervous at first but I told myself that I can't be nervous, I have to do well. But hais, I don't think I did a good job today. Only scored 2 points out of the 46 points, I felt like I should've contributed more. I really need to concentrate, play hard and play smart. Sigh. And also, my knee started to hurt and I couldn't really walk properly. I tried my best to walk normally, but it hurt. Sigh, gonna ice my knee and probably bandage it for tmr. Hope that it'll be fine by monday so I'll be able to train.

Oh and I have something I wanna say. It's been bothering me for quite awhile already. Have you guys every feel so erm, annoyed when you try your best to talk to someone and the way they reply it's like they don't wanna talk to you ? It's like you put smileys and you're so happy to be able to talk to that someone and then that person just reply like he/she doesn't really wanna talk. Like no smileys and maybe even reply with one word. For me, if that person doesn't put smileys, I'll feel like he/she is in a bad mood and wouldn't wanna talk. Yeah you might think why I'm so sensitive, right ? But it's also cause that person do reply with smileys before and when he/she doesn't, it certainly feels like there's something wrong or maybe even he/she doesn't wanna talk. Get my point ? And when this happens, my mood will just totally change. I'll reply coldly or maybe not even reply. If you don't wanna put in effort to talk to me, then forget it, just don't. I hate it how at times when I'm happy and this happens, my happiness just totally disappear. Ugh. Do you get it ? Hais, sometimes really damn annoying. 

So that's it for this one. If you're reading this, feel free to give me ideas on what I should blog about. Hehehe ok bye (:

Today ~

Today started off bad cos I realised that my knee guard was missing. I always hang it at the window to air after every training and will take it on the morning of the next training date and put it into my shoebag. So apparently this morning, it wasn't at where I put it and my first thought was that it dropped down and I guess I'm right because I really couldn't find it. Right now, there's construction work going on so yeah, quite impossible to even get it back. 20 bucks spent on that knee guard. And it's pretty new. My dad did help me to ask the construction workers if they did see any knee guard but no, so hais. Went to school with a super glum face cos I was really upset that I lost my knee guard. Miss Ong asked me why I looked so upset and I told her what happened and she actually said that she would buy one for me then I was like no no no. Don't need. It's expensive. But she said no it's not. Don't worry about it. I'll settle for you. Just focus on your studies. I was like huh don't want. And I just walked away.

Gradually, my mood got better. First period was Maths and it was quite okay. Just like the usual math lesson. After that was A Maths. We went to the AVT for lesson because our class had to combine with 4D as there was only one teacher. Managed to only do 3 questions out of the entire A Math lesson. Again, annoyed. It's super frustrating ! Really wanted to do more but no time. Hais. After A Math lesson was Physics lesson. I hate science but physics is an exception because lessons are always fun and interesting ! Easy to understand as well (: Mr Kang always make it easy for the class to understand and that's why I like his lesson. Then it was recess followed by English lesson. English lesson was just pure craziness. The class pretended that it was Chin Hong's, Ding Wei's and John's birthday. And we just kept singing the birthday song for them. Interrupting Mdm Han when she's trying to speak. And the look on her face was priceless xD It was just so hilarious, couldn't stop laughing. SS lesson was almost like a free period. Miss Ong had to do something important and she only came at around 1.15, leaving only 15 minutes for her to teach. Can't blame her though. Last lesson of the day was Geog. And it was a free period again cos Miss Neeta wasn't in school, she's at the sec 3 camp. During free periods, all I did was walk around school, act retarded, sing and use my phone. Hahaha I'm such a slacker :3

After school, I headed to the basketball court. Today's Adlina's birthday so we actually planned out a surprise for her. Since training started at 4 today and she had remedial, we had time to prepare for the surprise. After waiting for quite awhile, she arrived at the court. Aqidah accompanied her to change and when she came back, we were at the second level holding the happy bday sign and we sang the birthday song for her ! Also throwing one ball and many balloons at her ! She was so happy and I'm glad our surprise succeeded :D Oh and Adlina is actually scared of balloons. So we went to disturb her and pop the balloons in her face. Again, her expression was priceless xD Training was pretty okay today. Didn't do much, just shooting and practicing our baseline and sideline plays. My knee was hurting during training cos I didn't have my knee guard but luckily the pain was bearable. Meh. Oh and I received a text from Miss Ong saying that she already bought a knee guard for me. I was so touched and I'm really grateful (:

Tomorrow will be our first match for the East Zones and we'll be playing against Dunman High. A little nervous cos it's my first time playing in team :3 Praying that I'll actually do well tmr and that I won't be nervous. Hahaha so that's it for this blog post ! Bye ^^

RUNNING GROUP { and stuff }

So this group consists of three people ! Lu Yao, Shahbaz and I. Hahaha cos apparently, Shahbaz lost weight over the holidays, a total of 27kg ! That's really a lot and I literally went like WOAH when I first saw him when school reopened. I was really shocked. Then I asked him how he actually did it and he told me that he ran 6 times a week during the holidays and he also did pull ups and push ups. Seeing him lose so much weight made me want to lose weight as well cos I want to be slim by prom so I'll look good in my prom dress. HAHAHA. And also, being fat sucks. I do have stomach fats. It's hard to find clothes that will look good on me simply because, fat. Hahaha and so I asked Shahbaz if I could run with him and he agreed ! Then Lu Yao also joined in and yay, we plan to run together, lose weight together and erm, look good for prom together (?) Hahaha I mean who doesn't want to look good for prom right ?


Today, we actually planned to run but in the end, we didn't. Simply because, lazy. Hahaha damn, need to stop this laziness if I really want to lose weight :3  Hahaha I asked Shahbaz if I have to control my diet and he said no sweet drinks, mac, kfc, basically, fried food. And I was like hahahaha shit, I fail this diet control part alr. I need to control my diet. Hais. And he also told me that eating boiled, grilled or baked food is healthy. Hahaha I shall try to eat more of this kind of food and less of those fried stuff. { if i actually can } We talked more on other stuff and came to the topic on Napfa. Seriously very burden ah. O level year still have Napfa. Wah, just hope I pass uh. Talking about Napfa, sidetrack abit, I can never do well for sit & reach and standing broad jump. I suck at this two components. Meh. Hahaha anyways, my aim is to be 45kg by the end of the year. Right now, I'm freaking 53.6kg. Hais, heavy la heavy. Just hope I'll achieve my goal. Trainer Shahbaz will be there to help, thank God ! HAHAHA ! Oh and I asked on the group what I should blog about today and Shahbaz said future prom queen. And he was referring to me xD Thanks Shahbaz, you flatter me too much. Hahaha so I guess that's about it for this running group thing.


Shall talk a little bit on today. I was almost late, ALMOST. Lucky never. Hahaha I've never been late for school before. Yeah, really never. I remember telling Sabrina and Jun Hui and they were like how you even maintain one. Hahaha actually, I have no idea. Hehehe lessons today were pretty much normal. A Maths lesson was the most frustrating one. We only managed to complete about 6 questions in that entire one hour. Frustrating because it was so unproductive. Lu Yao and I was really annoyed. Sigh, we really need to buck up. Oh and I'm glad that I decided to join Mrs Lim's small class cos I concentrate more there. POA was just as usual, boring. But singing and going a little crazy with John made it less boring. Hahaha decided to have lunch with Justina after school and as we were walking out, we saw Kang Le, Andrea's brother. He's really so cute ! Cannot tahan. Too cute alr xD Hehehe met Edna on our way to tampines mall and the three of us had lunch together ! Talked about sports injuries and other stuff during lunch and I really appreciate being able to have such nice friends to share thoughts and just hang out with ! Today's been fun. Looking forward to tomorrow ! Hehehe goodnight (:

Hello !

Hahaha I'm pretty new to this so yeahhh, don't mind me. Just decided to start up a blog cos erm I feel like it (?) Hahahaha so I guess here's where most of my thoughts will be. Sometimes I'm not too comfortable with sharing them with others so they'll just be here. Hehehe and sometimes I really want to tell someone something but I don't want to say it to their face so I'll just say it here too ! Hahaha actually, I'll pretty much just blog about everything and anything I think of so yup !

Just a little bit about myself, I love to sing. Yes, L O V E. I sing in the shower, I sing in class, I sing during training, I sing pretty much every single time I can. Some people say I can't sing, some people say I can but whatever, I do what I love. Hehehe oh and I'm really crazy. Like really. I'm always the one coming up with random and stupid ideas. I act all crazy around my friends and tbh, I feel like I'm annoying everyone. Oops. I play the guitar and also the piano. { not a pro } I used to do covers but not anymore cos I'm lazy. Now, I use soundcloud. If you don't know what that is, then go find out yourself :p And I'm a basketballer, TEAM DUNMAN, hahaha not the best but hey, at least I improved ! Hahaha oh and I love kids.  Hmm what else.... Oh oh oh I LOVE the colour pink ! I'm already planning to dipdye or ombre my hair pink after I graduate ! Really can't wait xD And I'm a Christian. Yes, I am. Not a perfect one but I'm trying my best (: So yeah, that's all you need to know about me ^^

Oh and one thing, if you're gonna judge me based on what I blog then please, don't read. Hahahah so yup, I guess that's it for this first blog post ! I'll try to blog as often as I can so yay ! Hehehe goodnight !