Sorry for not blogging for so long because I've been either busy or just lazy, hehehe.
Mid Years are over and hais, I'm so disappointed with my results. Especially for my physics and humanities paper because I really studied hard for those papers and the results I got were pure shit. I didn't do as well for chinese as well, I've gotta start working harder, I want to do well for Os.
Anyways, today was our Career Guidance Seminar day. I was a little tired so I almost slept during the different capsules but luckily, I didn't. First capsule I went to was Business & Accountancy and I thought it was pretty cool but I don't think I'll be choosing that as one of my choices for Poly. Oh right, I really want to go to a Poly, preferably Temasek Poly because it's near to my house and they have good courses provided there, or at least, courses that I like and would want to go for. So my second capsule was Hospitality & Tourism. I've always thought of wanting to work in resorts or just places where there are many attractions because it's fun and I get to work with people. During this capsule, I found out that there is also one course called Leisure & Resort Management and when the lecturer was talking about this course, I knew in my mind that I would put this course as one of my 12 choices because it seemed quite fun and I would get to work as an intern at resorts and all that so I really like this course. Then my third capsule was Sports, Health & Leisure. I kinda regretted going for this one, I didn't know why I picked this one. Should have gone for Aviation Management because I wouldn't mind working as a cabin crew and also in the airport, again, getting to work with people. Luckily Noreen went for that one and she told me some stuff about Aviation Management and it's pretty cool so yay, that might be one of my choices as well !
Moving on to talking about another thing. This few days have been like a rollercoaster, full of ups and downs. So many things going on and I really felt like giving up at certain points but I keep pushing on because I know that at the end of all these, I would find it all worth it. Things between us haven't been going well recently and I'm really sad and hurt because I never want this to happen. Honestly, I keep feeling like I'm annoying you in some way or another. I'm very insecure and I keep getting the feeling that I'm always not good enough. I'm scared that one day you'll find someone better or you'll go back to liking your previous crush or whatever. I'm so damn scared of losing you because you mean that much to me, I hope you understand. Hais, but yeah. I really hope that this episode of 'arguments' and getting angry at each other would go past fast because I want us to be like last time, happy when we're together. I'm not giving up on you, I will still continue trying my best to make everything go well and I'll continue trying to give in and of course, I would still continue loving you.
So this is it for this blog post. Thanks for reading you guys. Have a great night ! Bye (:
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