Fridayyy

Hello hello hello !

Didn't blog yesterday because I was tired and I had to sleep early because there's a match today ! Hehehe left class at 10.30 today for the match. Only attended English and Chinese lesson today. We had to do a graded essay during English and I wrote so damn much, I hope that's a good thing :3 Hehehe then during Chinese, there was a compo test and it was quite okay. Left for match and ugh, didn't play well again. I was so nervous. Even after telling myself repeatedly that I can do this, don't be nervous. I still was. Sigh, why can't I be like the rest ? They're confident and they don't fumble the ball like I do every single time. It's super annoying. I really want to be a good player, doing all the things that I should. But I fail everytime. And that sucks so bad. Why can't I not be nervous ? It's so difficult. Ugh, this shit is so annoying. Damn freaking annoying. I just can't understand why. Is it because I'm not good enough ? Sigh. I want to play well. I want to, for once, get praised by Coach because I played well, because I fought hard. I don't want to disappoint the rest all the time. Hais. But I'm really thankful for my teammates. They encourage me every single time. And that is also why I get so affected when I don't play well. I feel like I've disappointed my teammates when I don't play well. Yeah some people might say then just don't fumble and play well la. What's so difficult ? Lol please, it'd difficult actually. Inside me I know that I can do it and I will be able to do it but when I put it into action, it all just sucks and turns out bad. Sigh. Let's just hope I play better the next match.

Then went back to school to shoot and play for a bit. Played 1 on 1 with Putri and I couldn't even score a single ball. I felt so lousy and so.....UGH. Then we started shooting and my shots were so damn off. Then I just went to sit down and I started thinking about the match and what I've done wrong. I can't stop blaming myself for being such a lousy player. Why oh why. Oh and thanks to Sofia, Jamie, Noreen and Andrea for cheering me up ! Then went on to shoot a bit more before resting for awhile and then started to play 1 on 1 with the super tall John Nazz. Hahaha at first I was scoring so much but he still won in the end. It was fun playing with him, really laughed a lot. I kept fouling him xD Those unnecessary fouls. Meh. Went to sit down for a bit after playing with John. Then started playing running man with Sofia, Emi and Aqidah. We teared foolscap paper, wrapped it around our hands and stapled the paper tgt. Sofia and Emi were the catchers first and they were aiming Aqidah most of the time. First time they 'caught' her was at the canteen area, but they didn't manage to tear off her 'tag' so she was still 'alive'. Then she ran and got caught again. But still, they didn't manage to tear off her tag. So in the end, we swap roles. Aqidah and I became the catchers. Aqidah tore off Emi's tag and she also helped me to tear off Sofia's. We were all on the floor and omg so dirty, my white pants became, yucks. Hahaha and damn, my basketball shoes and white jersey pants kena paint because apparently, my shoes kena cos we were playing and I didn't know that there was wet paint so tadahhhh. Then my pants kena cos I forgot that there was wet paint and actually sat 'on' it. How dumb. I thought I was never gonna remove the paint but then, this netball junior told me that it can be removed by using the thinner (?) from the DnT room so YAY, Crystal will be helping me ! (:

Went for dinner at Tamp 1 Subway with Angela and Crystal. Talked and laughed a lot. Had some horny talk in between and omg, it was disgusting. I think people thought we were crazy cos we laughed too much and probably, too loud. Then we walked around that area and went to popular first before going to paper stone ! There were scrapbooks there and we were allowed to scribble on it so Angela and I was busy scribbling and writing quotes and just, making the book look nicer xD Hahaha crystal was like staring at us and going like haiya you guys ah. Hahaha free paper to scribble so WHY NOT. Hahaha so we suddenly remembered that we needed to get something for someone so we went to Zinc to look around and omg the pink baggu bag was so pretty ! But it's like $29.90, expensive ): want buy also no money. Hais, it's so nice. Then continued walking around and we went to see what movies there were. And oh, I heard there's this movie coming out called The Fault In Our Stars and it sounds interesting, I WANT TO WATCH. HAHA. LOL. Hahaha so we walked past Fruit Paradise and omg the cakes look so yummy but it's so expensive. The cheapest slice is like $6.80 ?! What the shit. But still, it looks sooooooooo good. Hahaha so we went to the converse shop and the shoes were really nice. I really want a high cut one so I guess I should start saving up for it :/ Hais so many things that I want but my damn budget....... Let's just pray that money just appear for no apparent reason. ( lol that will never happen )

Today's been fun. And tmr is church dayyyyyyy. Can't wait ! Hehehe ok bye ! Goodnight ! (: