Many things have happen the past 2 months, be it good or bad. Poly have already started for me and oh my goodness I'm feeling very stress already because of the many assignments that are given to us. But it's okay, I'll get through this. And also, HSS FO ended about a month ago and it was really fun ! Met many new people and my GLs were really nice and welcoming ! The games we played during FO were great as well ! Never regretted coming into HSS because HSS is a small school compared to the other schools and that's really good because we're like a family. Almost everyone knows each other or have at least seen each other around before. It's really cool also because HSS won the Olympiad this year. It's been very long since HSS won so this year's win was a huge one !
Moving on, I've made new friends in my class and they're all really nice ! My clique consists of 9 girls and I guess my clique is the craziest in the class. Always making a lot of noise and all, during lectures as well. But yeah, really thankful for this bunch of girls. Although we just met not long ago, they are really my good friends. They are the ones who make me look forward to coming to school. They make school so much more bearable for me ! We also coordinate our outfits and it's really funny cos one day we decided to all wear jeans and omg worst decision ever because it was really humid that day ! Since then, we never proposed wearing jeans hahahahahahahahha.
And here comes the rather sad part. I find it weird how out of thousands of people in TP, I still see you around. We are both from different schools and our classes are at different places but yet we still bump into each other ? My friends used to tell me 'Aiya, TP so big, confirm you both won't see each other one. Plus you both from different schools eh.' I agreed very much with them in the past, what's the odds of seeing each other in school right. And it's like 1% of the reason why I chose ECS is because I won't see you. If not confirm see you every week at least once in lecture hall cos we would be in the same course. But like no use ah because I still see you around leh. But I'm happy to say that I'm better now emotionally compared to before. Last time when I see you in school, I would try my best to ignore or to just not care because I would be reminded of the memories and would get really sad. But now, I would say hi to you when we see each other in school because you're just like a friend to me now, not much of an ex. We met last Sunday and I am really glad we had that short catch up. It somehow affirmed the decision that I made awhile ago. Letting go of someone whom you held so dear to your heart is really not easy at all. It takes many many many nights of crying and many many tubs of, erm, ice cream and tons of food. It is not impossible, it just takes time. There would be times where you really want to give up and to just poof, disappear from this world. I had that thought but I'm glad I held on. There would be times where you really want to just go back into his/her arms but you realise and cry over the fact that it's over. Sometimes I ask myself, why do people get into a relationship only to break up in the end ? Why start something that you are gonna end ? I don't get it, up till now, I still don't. It just sucks la to be going through all this shit. But ultimately, my mind is set on the decision that I have to let go and I have to get over you because this isn't worth my time. I have better things to worry and to care about. I rather spend my time investing in friendships than brooding over something that is of no use to me. Save those tears because it isn't worth it. I just hope you're doing fine and please don't tease me anymore with any other guy. I'm not ready and probably won't be until a very long time later. Putting all these to an end and I'm on my road to recovery and being 100% happy (:
Okay enough of those emo nemo. Recently, I went for Music Vox Auditions ! I went with my good friend Germaine and we were so nervous. First round of auditions was last week and we were really unsure of how it would turn out. I still remember that I was still unsure of my song choice until the day itself. After much contemplation, I decided to sing The Show by Lenka ! While I was backstage waiting for my turn to go up, I was so so so super nervous. And here's the thing, when I'm nervous or when I sing infront of a large crowd of people whom are unfamiliar to me, my cheeks would shiver (?) and I won't be able to sing well. However, when I went on stage, my cheeks didn't shiver as much as I thought it would ???? And plus I embarassed myself oh my goodness. So normally people would say the song they're gonna sing before they start singing but I didn't and jumped straight into it. And then I stopped and was like 'Oh oh oh yeah, I'm singing The Show by Lenka.' When I did this, everyone in the audi laughed and I laughed as well. This helped boost my confidence a little because I felt more relaxed. And so I started singing and I was really happy because I think I did quite well ! The results were gonna be out probably like on Friday or something so I just waited. I was just sitting at MP on last Friday evening and my phone vibrated. I checked and was like 'OMG I GOT IN OMG OMG OMG !!!!!!!!' I was literally so happy I squealed and hugged my friends ! The amount of happiness that day was really too much ! I've never felt so happy before in a long time and I'm really grateful that I got through to the second round ! Germaine got through as well so YAY ! And then, we needed to worry for second round audition which happened earlier this week. Germaine and I went on Tuesday. Same thing, I was unsure of what to sing. At first I wanted to sing Put Your Records On but when I was typing into the laptop, I realised that there were many others who were singing that song as well ! So I decided to change to I Can't Make You Love Me instead. BUT THEN, when I was in the audi and the contestants started singing, I decided to change back again. So I ended up singing Put Your Records On. This time, I came out of auditions feeling very down because I felt as if I could've done better. The high notes were not as smooth ): It also took me quite awhile to figure out the key they wanted me to transpose to. But at least the harmonising part was still ok ! I just hope that I would be able to get in because I really like to sing. My voice isn't the nicest and there's still a lot I need to learn but yeah I really really really wish I can get in >< Let's just see the results tmr ! If I get in, I swear I'll go crazy and start hugging everyone. Ok maybe not everyone but yaaaaaaaaaa.
So it's 230am now, I should go to sleep. HEHEHE GOODNIGHT ^^
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