Hello everyone !
So I'm back with another blog post and this is gonna be a little different I guess ? I have been thinking a lot recently and yeah why not just write them all here right ? So here goes.....
I miss being loved.
I miss having someone by my side.
I miss goodnight texts.
I miss waking up to the texts from the person I love.
The late night phone and video calls.
Cuddling and just enjoying each other's presence.
But, I miss loving and caring for someone more.
I miss writing post-its to the one I love.
I miss planning random surprises.
I miss giving hugs and kisses.
Running into his arms when I see him from afar.
Buying little gifts just to put a smile on his face.
Giving in just so there won't be a big fight.
To be really honest, I miss having a boyfriend.
Because I know that I have so much to give.
I've learnt so much from my past relationship.
I've learnt how to better love someone.
But then again, I'm afraid.
What if one day he finds someone better than me ?
What if he gets annoyed with me ?
What if he gets bored of me ?
I'm afraid to love again.
Because I gave so much and all I got in return was so much pain and hurt.
I'm afraid that he will leave realizing that I'm not good enough for him.
I'm afraid of break-ups.
I don't want to go through another tough time of endless crying and swollen eyes.
Of breaking down when people ask me about it.
I'm really scared.
But I know, one day, I'll find the one who will love me for who I am.
Who will never leave no matter what happens.
One who would be willing to take walks with me in the park rather than going to shopping malls.
One who would just cuddle with me rather than going on expensive dates.
One who would just have macs with me.
One who wouldn't call me annoying when I start singing but instead, sing with me.
One who would be silly with me and take retarded selfies.
One who can stand my extreme laziness.
One day, I'll be able to find that one.
I'm really excited for what's to come.
I'm looking forward (:
I miss having someone by my side.
I miss goodnight texts.
I miss waking up to the texts from the person I love.
The late night phone and video calls.
Cuddling and just enjoying each other's presence.
But, I miss loving and caring for someone more.
I miss writing post-its to the one I love.
I miss planning random surprises.
I miss giving hugs and kisses.
Running into his arms when I see him from afar.
Buying little gifts just to put a smile on his face.
Giving in just so there won't be a big fight.
To be really honest, I miss having a boyfriend.
Because I know that I have so much to give.
I've learnt so much from my past relationship.
I've learnt how to better love someone.
But then again, I'm afraid.
What if one day he finds someone better than me ?
What if he gets annoyed with me ?
What if he gets bored of me ?
I'm afraid to love again.
Because I gave so much and all I got in return was so much pain and hurt.
I'm afraid that he will leave realizing that I'm not good enough for him.
I'm afraid of break-ups.
I don't want to go through another tough time of endless crying and swollen eyes.
Of breaking down when people ask me about it.
I'm really scared.
But I know, one day, I'll find the one who will love me for who I am.
Who will never leave no matter what happens.
One who would be willing to take walks with me in the park rather than going to shopping malls.
One who would just cuddle with me rather than going on expensive dates.
One who would just have macs with me.
One who wouldn't call me annoying when I start singing but instead, sing with me.
One who would be silly with me and take retarded selfies.
One who can stand my extreme laziness.
One day, I'll be able to find that one.
I'm really excited for what's to come.
I'm looking forward (:
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