Hello everyone ! I've got the feels to blog tonight so here I am hehehe ^^ Many things have happened the past week and they aren't really very pleasant stuff I would say. But it got me thinking a lot.
I wonder if I could really put my 100% trust in the people around me.
I wonder if people are really genuine in their friendship with me.
I wonder if people truly care or are just kpo.
I wonder if they wanted to know more so they can help or just so that they have more to gossip about.
I wonder if they're really who they portray themselves to be infront of me.
I've always trusted the people around me. Sharing things and being open with them. I didn't think much of whether the things I shared would be kept between the person and I. I didn't bother much because I didn't think that it would affect me. But things started to happened and I can say that I lost trust in people.
I was afraid, really afraid. I guess I still am, a little. Because I didn't know that this was such a scary place to be in. I thought everyone was genuine with each other and truly wanted to invest in friendships, but I was wrong. I guess it was just me who thought that way. I started to see how people really are and I started to question their intentions. During the entire 3 days of shit, there was just this weird feeling in me. I go to school thinking if the person I talk to next would start spreading shit about me that ain't true. My mood was really low because I was confused with everything. It was really overwhelming for me.
I don't understand how people think at times, but I can't blame them either. Truth is, we're just friends and there's really nothing going on. Whether you people out there choose to believe it or not, our conscience is clear. I'm happy that things are much better now and I just hope there won't be a repeat of such stuff.
Okay, that's all I have to say. Reading it through again and it feels so emo nemo HAHAHA. These are just the unpleasant stuff that happened, there were good stuff as well but I'll leave it for another time. Hehehehe okay bye (:
